So I want to start this off by saying thank you. Thank you to those who have been supporting me on this journey however they've been able to; there is still some time left before my trip to raise more funds and just sort out some things, but I'm truly grateful for all of the support I've been given.
Instead of really talking about this journey to Costa Rica, I'm going to tell you what goes through my head every time I think about it. Charity. Change. Adventure. Freedom. Simplicity. I could go on and on with descriptive adjectives about my thoughts, but those about sum it up. I look back at the last few years of my life and I've realized something: I've given ten years of my days on this Earth to the same job. TEN YEARS!!! Putting it into perspective, I'm about to turn 33 while being in Costa Rica, so that essentially means I've given a third of my life to one company. The only other institution or group who had those many consecutive years of my being has been my family, and I can promise you they probably weren't my best ones. Being the youngest sibling did have some advantages to it. ;-)
Yet it's been over these last five years that I've been able to take advantage of some solitude within these years of employment and just discover what makes me tick and what I want to do to help contribute to this globe. I've written about this topic before, but I am a person of signs and energy; for whatever reason, I feel that life is trying to point me in a clearer direction. Why has it taken me so long to see this? I really don't know. It could be because I was in a dark place for years, or perhaps I didn't have the vision necessary to see what life was laying before me. Perhaps I was just too scared to question my life.
Do I have the answers to all of life's questions and mysteries? I wish I did, yet I'm glad I don't. It allows there to be adventures, challenges and even uncertainties presented to us all. I don't know what Costa Rica will bring, but I do feel that it will be an important stepping stone to getting me closer to that ledge that holds God only knows what. I have to admit right now that I'd be lying if I said I'm ready to take the leap and just see where I land; I'm still working things out to where I can, but as a consequence of setting my earlier nomadic ways aside, I've picked up a few permanent and semi-permanent stragglers along the way. I have to have faith though that this adventure will only bring me good and that for whatever reason, perhaps it's all meant to be played out this way.
I hope that throughout this whole process and my writings of it, you will perhaps walk away from it all with your own sense of growth. I want to not only share this adventure with you, but I also want you to look into yourselves and see what makes you happy. If you're already doing everything that brings you joy then I'm elated for you!!! Maybe you can offer me some tips! And for those who are searching just as I am, I say to you this: don't ever stop striving for that happiness. It could be in front of you this whole time, or perhaps in a far off land or in another job, but never think that you don't deserve to be or pursue whatever makes you happy.
As for me, I know I'm content with my life and consider myself very fortunate; however my spirit needs to be fed and nourished through way it only know how to be. So come join me! Let's take this journey together, even if our paths are very different, we can all still use each others love and support to carry on.
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